Bring Back The Old Ahmad Fadhil Zhafri to Me!!!!!

Since yesterday, I have been like this and felt like the earth is trembling and crushing on me. I am feeling lonely filled with anger, frustration and avenge to what had happened to me in the past. I am frustrated with myself because all things that I had planned did not work at all whilst others are reaping their riches and wealth. I have been working damn hard all this while but non seemed to work whilst others use the other way to reap their wealth and making money by oppressing others, back stabbing and even teasing others so that people will look down at them. How about those who are dedicated and worked hard to be at a place where they deserve to be? I am frustrated with what happened to me, I have been striving to get myself out from my dark life but this is what I get from my hard work, nothing but frustration.