Selamat Tinggal Semua...

Kala ini,

Kudrat ku lembik dan tidak bermaya,

Hanya pembaringan itu sahaja penemanku,

Penyakit ku tiada tanda untuk pulih sedia kala,

Hanya menanti Sang Malaikat menjemputku,

Percaya Pada Ku

Percaya Pada Ku (Ungu)

Aku tak tahu apa yang ku rasakan

Dalam hatiku saat pertama kali

Lihat dirimu, melihatmu

Seluruh tubuhku terpaku dan membisu

Detak jantungku berdebar tak menentu

Sepertinya aku tak ingin berlalu

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu

Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu

Hingga waktu menjemputku

Ku berikan cintaku juga sayangku

Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu

Hingga waktu menjemputku

Saat ku tahu kau akan pergi jauh

Izinkan aku tuk selalu menantimu

Untuk katakan ku ingin dirimu (ingin dirimu)

Agar kau tahu betapa ku terlalu

Mencintaimu aku akan menunggu

Hingga dirimu kembali untukku

Tolonglah aku bagaimana diriku

Ungkapkan itu rasa yang membelenggu

Dalam hatiku ku cinta padamu

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu

Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu

Hingga waktu menjemputku

Source: http://liriklaguindonesia.net/ungu-percaya-padaku.htm

-Fadhil Zhafri-

Reality in Life....And Are We Grateful Enough to Him?

Actually this was adapted from a message gotten from a friend of mine who is staying afar from me. How many of you perceived that people are leading a good lifestyle by looking at the type of car they drive, their clothing, where they eat and where they go shopping? I am sure that most of us are perceiving that way each time when we look at them. But actually, they are only looking at the surface but the reality is...... come and let see these situation...

Hilangnya Permata Paling Berharga.......

Hari demi hari aku melangkah,

Namun langkah ku longlai tiada bermaya,

Aku keliru, seribu keluh kesah,

Bagaikan mayat yang hidup di atas bumi maya,

Ke manakah hilang nya permata yang Kau berikan pada ku?

Aku bagaikan di awangan mencari permata yang hilang,

Permata yang terlalu berharga buat diriku dan sekalian umat yang lain,

Ku lihat mereka dalam dunia mereka yang penuh dusta, pancaroba,

Namun apakah aku ingin menjadi seperti mereka?

Hidup umpama kapal tidak bernakhoda,

Terumbang ambing.....

Apakah aku sudah terlalu tua kala melihat rambutku yang kian memutih,

Wajahku tidak secantik dahulu,

Kudratku kian lemah dari masa ke semasa,

Namun apa kan daya, aku terlalu asyik dengan dunia ku hingga terlupa.....

Ya aku terlupa untuk mengabdikan diriku kepada-Nya!

Itu lah permata yang ku cari selama ini..... tapi aku rasakan yang aku tidak sempat....

Kerana.....

Kala darah muda mengalir semuanya indah, 

Dunia yang punah ranah ini dikatakan syurga,

Kala manusia bergelumang noda dan dosa hingga permata itu dibiarkan hilang....

Namun kala nyawa di cabut kala berkalung noda dan dosa,

Bagaimana pula perjalanan kita di sana?

Apakah aku sudah bersedia untuk menghadap-Nya di sana?

Ya Tuhan yang punya kuasa di atas sekalian alam dan makhluk,

Pintaku hanya satu, izinkan aku mendampingi-Mu,

Kuat kan semangat ku mencari permata hilang yang Kau kurniakan pada ku,

Aku tidak bersedia untuk menghadap-Mu dalam keadaan hina dan jijik di mata-Mu

Permata yang Kau berikan pada ku masih ku cari hingga kini....

Namun bagaimana dan di mana harus aku mencarinya?

Selagi nyawa ku dikandung badan,

Permata itu akan terus aku jejaki hingga terpisahnya nyawa dari jasadku,

Ya Tuhanku, aku memohon pada-Mu....

Ku mohon restu dan keredhaan-Mu agar kala aku menghembuskan nafas akhirku,

Permata itu sudah bersinar dan terus menyinari sanubari ku...

Hingga kita bertemu di sana kelak....

-Fadhil Zhafri-

Naza-Brabus 

Selamat Tinggal 2011....

Berakhirnya 2011 bererti, setahun sudah berlalu dan Januari muncul kembali. Namun kalanya aku terfikir apakah aku berjaya menjadi seorang suami, anak dan hamba-Nya? Jika ingin aku menyesali apa yang telah berlaku, semuanya sudah tertulis dalam diari 2011, 365 hari 12 bulan kehidupan ku sepanjang tempoh itu dan aku tak dapat mengulangi semuanya. 2011 menyaksikan perjalananku yang penuh cabaran dan pancaroba dan paling menyedihkan aku masih meraba-raba dalam kegelapan mencari diriku yang sebenarnya. Semoga 2012 merupakan tahun keramat dan penuh dengan keredhaan-Nya Insya-Allah. Ingin ku dekati-Mu dan memohon ampun kepada-Mu Ya Allah. Berikan aku kekuatan agar aku tabah menghadapi 2012 dengan tenang dan redha. 2011 banyak mengajar ku erti kehidupan dan ingin aku menjadi insan yang lebih baik dan dekat dengan-Mu Ya Allah. Selamat tinggal 2011........

-Fadhil Zhafri-
Naza-Brabus Motor Sdn Bhd

I Love You Mama!

KALAU SAYANG IBU, BACA LA , TAK LAMA PUN, 5 MINIT JE .

Orang kata aku lahir dari perut mak ! (Bukan Org kata , memang betul)

Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Subang Utama

Sekolah ku Subang Utama....

Mencari Ilmu Hingga Berjaya

Demi masa depan yang tercinta

Untuk nusa dan bangsa

Berjaya dan bersepadu...

Cogan kata sekolah ku,

Menuntut ilmu berdisiplin diri,

Melahirkan insan yang terpuji,

Miliki guru berdedikasi,

Pada guru kami berjanji,

Melangkah dan berjuang bersama,

Mengharumkan Subang Utama ku........

Mengingati guru SMK Subang Utama yang banyak mendidik diri ku,

Nukilan

Fadhil Zhafri

Air Mata SMKSU

Source: Mun-Ceritalah Disini

Hadir nya aku di sini hanya lah satu,
Menuntut ilmu serta menempa kejayaan,
Namun aku leka serta jemu,
Jemu kala bebelan dan ayunan rotan mu hinggap di badan,

Gloomy Day for the Haji Jaafar's Family

Yesterday, Allah took my Aunty, Mak Ngah (Hjh. Aishah binti Jaafar).

This picture was taken in 2008 during our family day at Fraser's Hills. 

At first, I was inclined to write something about her.... then, I suddenly realized, that I am more concerned about us, who need to continue living and get use to losing the ones dearest to us.

I start to imagine how Pak Ngah feels. Perhaps, partly relieved that Mak Ngah's battle with cancer is finally over...and partly, anguish and hurt, when he lays down in bed to see the empty space next to him.

Mak Long, Mak Ngah's eldest sister lost her husband, Pak Long Raya, about a decade ago, and how she copes with life after he's gone, the loneliness, the emptiness..... takes amazing inner strength and courage.

It's unfortunate, for us who are still on this earth, that we have to continue to struggle in a world of sin. A world full of temptations that comes to us in the most subtle of ways and on every side.

No... I am not suicidal. Just in a melancholy mood. Losing a loved one, knocks me on the head, and for a while I see the world clearly. The shallowness of worldly things, and the filthiness of my worldly existence. 

I love Mak Ngah and Pak Long, and I will miss them sorely, as I will my father and my mother. But, what can I say about them that we don't already know? They've made it.... They are in a better place. 

I told Uncle Sham, while we sat outside the room where Mak Ngah are being bathed, that Tok Aki and Tok Wan are probably waiting for her now in heaven. Yes, I believe that, too. And what a lovely moment it is, to see them together again. And, how happy would they be to be together again. And, I imagine, next to Tok Wan and Tok Aki and Pak Long stood welcoming Mak Ngah... 

Selamat Datang... 

Ahla wa sahlan...

Makes me want to be there....

Ruhil - Anak Dunia with lyrics

My Parents Killed Me

Dear readers, 

By the time you read this, I am already in the line to reach out the heaven's door. I hope that my story will be a good lesson for all of us  especially those young and wild ones out there. You get your pleasure once but it will be your unforgettable nightmare that makes one a murderer of this innocent vulnerable little babies. My story is quite different than others because they were murdered by being tossed out of the verandah, crushed to death and worse, suffocated to death strangled by their own parents. I saw this world last a day before I turned 3 and I blamed my mother and her merciless, mean, boyfriend for what had happened to me. To my mother's so-called beloved boyfriend, you will never rest in peace because I would like to say thank you for being my murderer and killing me before my mother. This is my story.............

Three years back, mother was confirmed pregnant by doctor after she had a bad nausea and feeling sick always. But, who was her husband? Mother did not married and she ultimately got me by accident after her intimate relationship with this merciless and mean young man. Fortunately, this ungrateful and bad man accepted that my mother was pregnant because of him and promised her that he will took care of mother and I once I am  born 9 months later. You think that I am lucky for having such a caring and wonderful father? I think I am going to puke because he is bad! Very bad man! He said he loved my mother? Is that what we call love by beating her half dead whilst she was pregnant? I remembered, I was in her tummy and I heard that man called me a bad luck woman and the baby she was carrying (that's me off course) was nothing but a bad luck child. He did not care for mother, instead mother had to support him as he was not working; you know drug addict like him, who on earth would want to hire him? Wonder how my mother can be so crazily in love with this beast? Ahhh, love is in the air and man she allowed him to do anything so long that he wont leave her behind; mother, you loved that bad man more than me right? No wonder you let him killed me without showing any sign of guilty; I love you mother, yuck!!! Cut it out, I hate you very much mother and your drug addict boyfriend. 

9 months later, I was born. Thought that I would be loved and protected by my parents but I was wrong. I remembered I was not feeling well upon delivery hence I heard you said "Anak haram ini x habis-habis nak menyusahkan orang, kan baik kau mati je senang hidup aku!", mother, you know that I have been looking forward to see you but this is what I get, ok I promised that I wont cause you troubles and will love you always. Ever since then; after I was born, I was being treated badly by my mother and my unmarried father. He called me son out of wedlock, son of banshee and many more, hello sir, I am a human not a robot and have you ever think of my feelings? None right? You are one mean monster and you are not even qualified to be my father! Wonder why God created me and destined that I to be born out of wedlock. I also wanted to  be like others, having happy families but my mother of father? Mother still goes night outing with her friends clubbing as well as exchanging sex partners. Often I prayed that my beloved mother would change  her attitude and way of living and leave behind her super sacred monster but she looked at me as one dangerous insects that needs to be eliminated as soon as possible so that she could continue doing the same illegal actitivities. 

3 years later, her beloved boyfriend cum abah (ewwww I hate to put this word because this man is really bad!) took me out to town and treated me like a lifeless doll. I was happy at first, finally he could accept me as his son, but I was wrong! Oh my! What wrong I have done this time? Dad kicked me and hit me blatantly without showing any expression of mercy at all. He kept on cursing at me, readers what kind of father is that? Until the last kick, I stumbled upon my fate. I could not hold any longer, my sight was getting dim and all I could see was his satisfaction expression finally he managed to killed me without any sign of mercy. And finally.... goodbye cruel world!

Mom and dad! U may escape for now but wait till the judgement day! In front of Allah, I will claim my rights from you both! I hate both of you and I will never ever forgive you! Goodbye cruel world!

Teman Sejati

Teman sejati, mudah untuk diluahkan namun apakah bukti yang ditunjukkan seseorang yang dia merupakan teman sejati dan sentiasa bersama kita walau di mana jua kita berada baik dari segi fizikal atau jauh di mata dekat di hati. Teman sejati tidak mudah untuk di cari namun teman seketika begitu ramai sekali di luar sana. Seperti dalam posting aku yang terdahulu, aku sering dikhianati dalam persahabatan bila niat baik ku di salah ertikan dan kemuncak niat suci ku di khianati kala aku menuntut pengajian diploma. Tragedi itu terlalu dahsyat hingga sukar untuk aku melupakannya, tapi Allah itu Maha Adil, kala aku menuntut pengajian ijazah di sebuah institut pengajian terkemuka di Perlis Indera Kayangan ini, aku ditemukan dengan beberapa kenalan baru yang hingga kini aku memanggil mereka sebagai sahabat. 

Freddie Aguilar Anak (Child) English Version

Biar Lah Rahsia

Mama! Adik Benci Mama!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mama, mama tahu tak kenapa adik membenci diri mama? Mama tak tahu? Betul tak tahu ni mama atau mama buat-buat tak tahu? Yang pastinya adik memang membenci diri mama dan menyesal keluar dari perut mama ke dunia yang kejam dan penuh tipu helah ini mama! Mama nak tahu juga ke kenapa adik membenci mama hingga ke hari ini? Mari adik putarkan masa untuk mama ingat sejenak apa yang mama dah buat sampai adik membenci mama! 

Loggins and Messina - Danny's Song (1971)

Lirik Syahdu Di Pagi Rabu

Sambil aku melirik pada senarai pelanggan yang aku akan hubungi aku terpaku pada lirik lagu yang dinyanyikan oleh diva negara kita, Fauziah Latiff. Lirik dan alunan muzik yang sungguh puitis dah syahdu hingga mampu membuatkan aku terlena dan termangu seketika. Sama-sama kita menghayatinya...

Andai sampainya waktu aku harus tinggalkan mu
Akan aku berlalu bila tiba saat itu
Tak guna kau merayu dan tak perlu menahanku
Kerana yang berlalu kehendakmu

Hanya tuhan yang lebih tahu
Susah senang hidup dengan mu
Sumpah janji semakin layu
Hingga kini jatuh satu persatu
Engkau membiarkan ku

Air mata bertamu tidak kenal erti jemu
Menemani hatiku tidak mengenal ruang waktu
Mengapa dari dulu tak kau kata kan padaku
Kehadiranku ini menyusahkan

Yang terhalang kejujuranku
Dan yang terbilang kesilapanku
Memang payah dimengertikan
kerana tertutup pintu hati mu
Terima penjelasan

Biar apa jua tafsiran
Yang ingin kau nyatakan
Aku rela terima semua....

Ulek Mayang

Pasrah - Erra Fazira

Monolog Adik

Sumber: http://filsafat.kompasiana.com

Mama, maafkan adik sekiranya luahan hati adik ini sedikit sebanyak menyinggung perasaan mama, namun adik juga manusia mama, ada hati dan perasaan dan berhak untuk menyuarakan isi hati adik sepanjang berada dalam alam rahim mama selama 9 bulan 10 hari lamanya. Izinkan adik ya mama. Dalam usia 3 bulan adik berada di alam rahim mama, adik menunggu dengan sabar tibanya masa untuk adik melihat wajah yang telah mengandungkan adik selama tempoh tersebut. Namun mama isi kan perut adik dengan makanan tajam, mama sakit mama, tak kasihan kah mama pada diri adik ini mama? Adik minta ampun dan maaf mama jika adik berbuat salah pada mama dan adik janji adik tidak akan susahkan mama bila adik lahir nanti.

Kala usia adik dalam kandungan mama meningkat, adik sangkakan mama akan lembut hati dan mendodoikan adik dengan alunan zikir munajat dan ayat suci Al-Quran tapi sangkaan adik silap mama. Mama terus-terusan mendera adik dengan makanan tajam, sakitnya Ya Allah, mama adik minta maaf ya mama. Mama, adik selalu dengar mama menangis sendirian, kenapa ya mama? Kenapa tidak ada ayat yang manis yang adik dengar kan dari bibir mama melainkan caci nista dan maki hamun terhadap adik mama? Apakah dosa adik mama? Mama, sekali lagi mama, adik minta ampun dan maaf mama... mama adik janji dengan mama, adik akan jaga mama dengan baik dengan sepenuh kasih sayang adik mama tetapi adik perlukan kasih dan sayang dari mama, mama boleh kan? Izinkan adik menyempurnakan hidup mama dan papa bila adik lahir nanti. 

Sumber: http://sentuhankasihsuci.blogspot.com

Kala tiba masanya, adik mendengar mama menjerit, mengerang kesakitan, mama, sabar ya mama, adik dah tidak sabar lagi untuk melihat wajah mama, mesti mama adik nie cantik dan papa adik kacak dan bergaya. Tapi kenapa mama mencaci maki adik kala dalam keadaan tersebut mama? Mama, adik minta maaf sekali lagi mama, adik janji adik tidak akan sakiti mama lagi selepas ini. Akhirnya, adik dapat melihat wajah mama walaupun samar-samar tetapi kenapa kita berada di tempat yang jijik, busuk ini mama? Mana papa adik mama? Bukan papa kena azankan adik mama seperti mana lazimnya anak-anak lain kala lahir ke dunia ini mama? Tapi kenapa wajah mama tidak berseri dan ceria seperti mama-mama lain? Adik minta maaf mama sekiranya adik mengotorkan pakaian mama. Mama adik minta maaf mama! Ampunkan adik mama! Mama! Ke mana mama nak bawak adik nie mama? Adakah kita nak balik ke rumah mama? Mesti rumah mama besar kan, mesti atuk dan nenek x sabar nak melihat wajah adik kan mama......

Sumber: http://noktahhitam.com

Mama, kenapa kita berada di sini mama? Mama! Adik takut mama! Kenapa tempat tinggi ini mama bawa adik? Mama! Kenapa mama bawak adik ke mari? Mama! Adik takut mama.... Mama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mama........ adik sakit mama, kenapa mata adik ini mama? Kenapa badan adik terasa lemah longlai mama? ampunkan adik mama, sekiranya kehadiran diri adik dalam hidup mama ini menyusahkan, mama..... adik ini merupakan amanah dari Nya mama, tergamak mama membunuh adik mama, darah daging  mama sendiri? Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku, Kau lah Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang, Kau Ampunilah dosa mamaku ini Ya Allah! Berikan lah dia hidayah dan lindungi lah dia Ya Allah! Mama, itu lah doa adik buat mama...... walaupun mama hanya sempat bersama adik selama 2 jam namun adik hargai semua itu mama walaupun adik di caci, di cerca mama, semoga mama di ampunkan oleh Allah mama. Mama, adik tak boleh bertahan lagi, selamat tinggal mama, selamat tinggal dunia...

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Sumber: http://teratakkarmo.com

'Adik' dalam monolog ini adalah bayi yang baru dilahirkan dan kemudiannya di buang atau di bunuh oleh ibunya sendiri gara-gara keterlanjuran dengan bekas teman lelaki nya sehingga mengandung anak luar nikah. Kehadirannya dalam hidup ibunya langsung tidak di alu-alukan menyebabkan si ibu tergamak membunuh si anak yang tidak berdosa ini dengan mencampakkan dirinya dari bangunan tinggi. Kalau lah si bayi yang tidak berdosa ini pandai berkata-kata..... Aku meletakkan diriku di tempat bayi malang ini, sebak rasanya hati. Aku hanya mampu menukilkan di sini sahaja kerana tidak sanggup lagi mengenangkan tragedi buang bayi ini. Monolog adik ini moga di jadikan pedoman dan iktibar buat kita semua.

Bukan untuk menyalahkan kaum Hawa namun menyatakan anak itu amanah Allah. Sekiranya malu di cemuh dan di cerca masyarakat, serahkan anak itu kepada yang inginkan anak, jangan menjadi pembunuh. Kaum Adam juga harus bertanggungjawab di atas keterlanjuran mereka dengan kekasih mereka. Semoga monolog ini dapat memberikan iktibar kepada kita untuk menyelami perasaan si kecil yang tidak berdosa ini, kerana mereka tidak di minta untuk di lahirkan ke dunia ini melainkan dengan izin-Nya.

-Fadhil Zhafri-

2130 hrs

Bangsar

Tun Fatimah Nazam; After 10 Years

Yes, it has been 10 years since I last saw this friend of mine whom I had known since school days. And today unexpectedly I reunited again with her at Chawan Bangsar. Well she is still the same girl that I know although it has been 10 years down the road. She is Tun Fatimah Nazam, my senior back during my school days at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Subang Utama. We had known each other during the Annual General Meeting of Theater Club; opps did I say theater club? Yes I have deep passion in acting and singing even till today that I wish I can be a model but to no avail as I dont have the look hehehe...

This is something that I will remember forever, reunited with a long lost friend, Kak Tun Fatimah Nazam.

Above all Kak Tun, it was a great pleasure to see you again. Hope stay in touch ya. One day I will introduce you to my wife. She would be pleased to meet you in person.

-Fadhil Zhafri-
Naza-Brabus Motor Sdn Bhd

Berjuntai Tin Dredging and I

Yesterday I stumbled upon a book, The First 100 Years History of Malaysia Mining Corporation 1911-2011 (today known as MMC Engineering Berhad). I don't know why but quickly I began to remember the greatest childhood days ever that I had experienced during our stay there. My father was the dredge engineer there and it was the longest place that we stayed till 1990, when the price of tin continued to dwindle. I must say that I had the best time of my life there.

My family first came to Batang Berjuntai in 1984 after father was transferred from Keramat Tin Dredging, Tapah, Perak Darul Ridzuan. I was only one year old back then and my mother was expecting my second brother back then. We first stayed at the single storey bungalow not very far from the main gate of Bukit Minyak Engineers Residency (those who worked in the mining areas lived in luxury back then as all utilities were paid for and one just bring their suitcase and important belongings into the house provided by the company). Although I was only one but I remembered the house, air conditioned and fully furnished. 

Later in January 1985, we shifted to another single storey bungalow, addressed BM21 and the house was located about less than a kilometer from the mess hall. Similar size like the earlier house, but it was nearer to the mess hall where Mak always brought me for swimming there as well as having lunch or dinner there. Back then, the mess hall cooked the best Oriental Chicken Chop and Oriental Beef Steak and its signature dish, Chinese Fried Rice ( a must to have each time fellow engineers threw birthday parties or BBQ parties there). Mak gave birth to Fateh, my little brother back then after we shifted to BM21. Like any other houses there, all master bedrooms were fitted with air conditioners; Carrier or Philco brand (wonder what happened to this Philco brand). 

When Farah was born in 1986, we were still there and I was 3 years old. And father always brought me to the mining pool site where dredges operated 24 hours a day 7 days a week.

Source: http://www.cuti.com.my/album/displayimage.php?album=1113&pos=20

I remembered that day, it was raining heavily and mishap took place on the dredge BTD 06 hence my father brought me together with him to the mining pool and there it was, standing tall like an ailing gruesome monster, according to father, the dredge hit a big floating wood that it accidentally broke one of its pontoon and the dredge was slunted a bit due to the water sipping inside the dredge; that was the unforgettable moment for me seeing the dredge live for the first time. Before that, right in front of the main gate, there was an abandoned dredge, dredge BTD 05 and I could see how big was the monster standing gigantically in front of the main gate to the residency. If I want to go to Batang Berjuntai town, I would surely pass another mining pool belonging to Seng Kee (correct me if I am wrong) and there it was, standing tall, an old rusted dredge (sold as scrap after 10 years being abandoned). 

We then shifted to BM16 in 1987 a year after Farah was born, bigger house, bigger lawn and off course bigger playground for us. And that was the time when the abandoned long sleeping dredge BTD 05 went to live again. The sound of the machine was gruesome especially in the night, like a banshee questing for her victims. And for the first time ever I saw dredge BTD 05 in motion. Actually one could not see the dredge was in motion because it was huge hence it was hard to notice its movement. I must thank father for exposing me with the reality being a dredge engineer. It was not easy at all as he was always on standby in case anything went wrong with dredges back then. I guess I was very lucky enough to see dredges operating in real life not by mere reading or through pictures. 

But, that was years ago and I knew that I wont be able to turned back the clock. How I wish I could so that I just want to experience it once again and again. We moved from Berjuntai Tin in 1990 leaving behind thousands and one memories there. I wont be able to see dredges operating in life again. 

-Fadhil Zhafri-

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Khatijah Ibrahim - Mama Oh Mama

Bunga Citra Lestari - Ingkar (HIGH QUALITY - BETTER AUDIO)

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Gelombang (Salamiah Hassan)

Nasibku dirundung malang,
Sederas gelombang menghempas ke pantai,
Di malam aku ternoda dalam sinar cahaya di jendela,
Tiada esok lagi gelap masa depan,
Cemar hidup ini tiada erti...

Hidup ku seperti badai,
Tak henti gelora musnah lah segala,
Perasaan dan harapan untuk hari esok,
Tiada lagi....

Oh Tuhanku,
Kepada Mu ku pohon ampun doa restu Mu
Lindungilah daku yang tidak berdaya di bumi Mu ini............

Bring Back The Old Ahmad Fadhil Zhafri to Me!!!!!

Since yesterday, I have been like this and felt like the earth is trembling and crushing on me. I am feeling lonely filled with anger, frustration and avenge to what had happened to me in the past. I am frustrated with myself because all things that I had planned did not work at all whilst others are reaping their riches and wealth. I have been working damn hard all this while but non seemed to work whilst others use the other way to reap their wealth and making money by oppressing others, back stabbing and even teasing others so that people will look down at them. How about those who are dedicated and worked hard to be at a place where they deserve to be? I am frustrated with what happened to me, I have been striving to get myself out from my dark life but this is what I get from my hard work, nothing but frustration. 

SALEEM - TINGGAL KENANGAN

PENANTIAN - HARMONI

Salamiah Hassan - Gelombang

Engkau Laksana Bulan (P. Ramlee)

Alleycats - Gerimis Senja *Original Audio

CARPENTERS - Only Yesterday

Yesterday When I Was Young - Roy Clark

Life Is Not Beautiful

I am writing in sorrow and depressed.

Bagaikan Puteri (Guy Version)

For Shahrul & Yushairi; The Cat Murderer!

Shahrul & Yushairi,

You both have such a beautiful name given by both your parents but why are your personalities contradicts with the beauty of your names? Why your faces looked innocent as but actually you both are villains in disguise not towards human being but towards animals? What actually lie inside your head and what is the big idea of taking huge amount of these innocent fury creatures and let them starved to their death?

You both claimed that you are being cat lovers but is this how you both express your love and affection towards this innocent creatures? Cramped them all inside one small cage? let them starve and in huge stage of depression? You guys are nothing but a bunch of animal criminals. How could you let a mother cat and her kitten died facing each other due to depression and starvation? Wonder if this happens to any of your family members, died because of starvation and depression?

How could you torture these fury creatures without thinking the consequences that you may face in the future? You breached all trusts entrusted by parents of these innocent little creatures and let them died and starved. You both are nothing but a bunch of big fat liars! I hate liars and I hate cat murderers! Luckily I did not send my cat over to your place and if I do, I wonder what would happen to my precious little baby, Budak Gemok. Who tarnished the image of your premise now? Is it the owners or you yourself? You both are worse than animals. Even animals know how to differentiate between good and bad. 

So to Shahrul & Yushairi, congratulations to both of you for getting bad names from cat owners not only from those victimized by you but all people across the nation. I guess this is what you want right? To be famous in instant seconds? Well you both did already and how it feels ya being a cat murderer? Satisfied? And how about other cats who are still missing? Although you guys may escape now, but Allah will judge you both during the judgement days where cats that you killed and owners that you once victimized will claim their rights in front of Allah.

If you both are reading this, be afraid of Allah. Wallahua'lam.

Fadhil Zhafri

Naza-Brabus

Bangsar.

I'm Alive

Mmm, mmm, mmm
I get wings to fly
Oh, oh, I'm alive
Yeah

When you call on me
When I hear you breathe
I get wings to fly
I feel that I'm alive

When you look at me
I can touch the sky
I know that I'm alive
Mmm, oh, ahh

When you bless the day
I just drift away
All my worries die
I'm glad that I'm alive

You've set my heart on fire
Filled me with love
Made me a woman
On clouds above

I couldn't get much higher
My spirit takes flight
'Cause I'm alive
Ohh

When you call on me
(When you call on me)
When I hear you breathe
(When I hear you breathe)
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/celine-dion-lyrics/i_m-alive-lyrics.html ]

I get wings to fly
(Fly)
I feel that I'm alive
(I'm alive)

When you reach for me
(When you reach for me)
Raising spirits high
(God knows that)

That I'll be the one standing by
Through good and through trying times
And it's only begun
I can't wait for the rest of my life

When you call on me
(When you call on me)
When you reach for me
(When you reach for me)
I get wings to fly
I feel that

When you bless the day
(When you blessed you bless the day)
I just drift away
(I just drift away)
All my worries die
I know that I'm alive, yeah

I get wings to fly
God knows that I'm alive

My favorite song still. 

Hidupku Seperti Badai.....

Ya, demikianlah perihal kehidupanku yang tidak pernah lekang dek dugaan. Kadang kala aku seolah-olah tidak mahu menghadapi semua ini. Aku menangis sendirian di dalam jaga mahu pun kala aku terlena diulit mimpi. Mengapa harus aku lalui semua ini? Aku tanya pada diriku. Kala aku menukilkan luahan perasaan ku ini, aku terdengar sebuah lagu yang cukup sentimental serta berkait rapat dengan apa yang aku lalui saat dan tika ini. Liriknya sungguh puitis:-

Forever Young

As time goes by, I realized that I am getting old days after days. For all I know I am now in the end of my 20's and in about a year and a half I will leave behind the 20's. Sad but true and life is getting more challenging than ever. So now I am trying to look as young as I can till I come across this lyric, makes me feels young almost everyday. Hehehehe....

Anak (Freddie Aguilar)

When you were born into this world
Your mom and dad saw a dream fulfilled
Dream come true
The answer to their prayers

Rintihan Hati

Aku seronok, gembira melihat keletah anak-anak kecil,
Bermain-main dengan mama dan papa mereka,
Namun di sebalik kegembiraan itu,
Terlakar kisah suka duka dalam hidupku dan dia....

Kami bahagia, cukup bahagia,
Namun jauh di sudut hati kami, jiwa kami kosong,
Ya kosong, kosong tanpa kehadiran suara tangisan,
Keletah si kecil dalam rumah kami yang sunyi umpama tanah kubur...

Hidup kami sentiasa di selubungi kesedihan,
Kerana apa yang di tunggu tiada jua datangnya,
Senang untuk orang berkata belum rezeki,
Namun jauh di hati ini, bagaikan di siat-siat pedang tajam...

Kami menadah tangan memohon kepada-Nya,
Perkenankan permintaan kami yang satu ini,
Beri lah kami peluang menjadi mama dan papa,
Namun, bila kah akan tertunai permintaan kami, tiada siapa merungkainya....

Kisah hidup kami penuh dengan pancaroba dan dugaan,
Banyaknya syaitan dan iblis yang cuba memecah belahkan kami,
Aku membenci golongan syaitan bertopengkan manusia ini...
Cantik di luar tetapi busuk di dalam.......

Selagi hidup kami belum sudah,
Kami akan terus berusaha.....
Apa yang aku harapkan agar mama dan abah
Sempat menatap wajah cucu sulung kesayangan mereka......
Ya Allah...aku menangis mengenangkan kedua ibu bapaku......

Aku tahu mereka inginkan cucu seperti orang lain,
Namun kenapa masih belum ada tandanya,
Mengapa orang lain yang tiada ikatan perkahwinan senang sahaja dibuntingkan?
Mengapa orang yang sudah ada ikatan perkahwinan sering sahaja di duga sedemikian rupa.....

Aku dan dia akan teruskan perjalanan kami,
Perjalanan yang tiada permulaan dan penamatnya....
Berikan aku kekuatan Ya Allah....

Mercedes-Benz

Mercedes-Benz is such a premium brand that even a singer would make a song out of it. Take Ms Janis Joplin for instance, she wrote a song that resembles how much Mercedes-Benz is highly regarded as a premium brand back in her era before she died. Anyway, enjoy the lyrics.

My very own Moments of Passion

I have been watching too much videos narrating the long journey of the world's famous premium brand, what else if not Mercedes-Benz. As a matter in fact, I have been a big fan of this brand ever since I was a little boy and wishing that someday I will and must own this brand and ensure that it parked properly under my house porch. That was 23 years back when I had my first ride in a 1975 Mercedes-Benz 230.4 which was owned by my uncle and it was the greatest moment that I ever had when first riding in it. I guess I am destined to be a long life Mercedes-Benz fans and driver as I would like to share my very own moments of passion with this brand and how I experienced nothing but the best engineering from this brand.

Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Subang Utama Masih Utuh Di Ingatan ku

Aku bersekolah di Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Subang Utama dari tahun 1996 hingga tahun 2000, tahun aku menduduki peperiksaan SPM. Pejam celik pejam celik rupanya sudah hampir 11 tahun aku meninggalkan bangku sekolah yang usang itu. Pelbagai ragam yang telah aku saksikan kala aku meniti hidup muda remaja yang penuh dengan pancaroba ini. Al-Maklum, baru menginjak usia remaja; suara pun baru pecah masa tu. Apa yang aku paling ingat kala aku bersekolah di sana; lagu sekolah, ya lagu yang menyemarakkan semangat warga SMKSU ini. Sama-sama kita menghayatinya.

Richard Clayderman - Ballade pour Adeline

Cars, My Ultimate Passion, Mercedes-Benz my passion

Mum told me that I have started to show my interest in cars since I was a little child. She could still remember when was 1 year old I have began to know certain brand of cars. Since daddy is also a car fan, often, where ever he goes to view cars he would brings me together with him and I could still remember when he bought his first BMW, a 1977 BMW 320i back in 1987, I dozed off at the back seat of the car; a sign of approval hehehehe..... (dnnt be mad daddy just kidding :-p)

Father and Son By Yusuf Islam

Wonder why, lately I have been thinking about my father.

Anak....

This song is dedicated to all parents in the world, or those who are yet to be parents but still hoping, rest assured as every clouds have its silver lining.

Buat Adikku Faradyla Fuad

Ya, adik perempuan ku yang cukup aku sayangi hingga seekor jentik-jentik pun aku x izinkan hinggap atas badannya kini sudah menjadi isteri orang. Aku bagaikan tidak percaya pada 3 June 2011 tepat jam 2035 hrs,

Car for Sale

I am just helping my customer,

Another Two Days.....

Yes, I am quite eager, nervous actually waiting for the next two days. What is it? Well let it remain as a secret until I reveal it on the 3rd June 2011. Stay tuned....


-Fadhil Zhafri-
2320 hrs
Ara Damansara.

Hati Yang Telah Kau Sakiti

Mercedes Benz History Commercial

11 Tahun Sudah Berlalu Dan Akhirnya

Semalam, terluah juga apa yang terpendam dalam jiwa ini setelah 11 tahun aku memendam perasaan marah, kebencian dan dendam jauh dalam hati ku. Bagaikan kanser yang memamah setiap bahagian dalam tubuh hati ku, aku akhirnya terlepas juga tekanan hidup aku yang aku telan selama 11 tahun itu. Terlalu banyak pengalaman pahit yang aku lalui sepanjang aku melalui ranjau kehidupan yang penuh dengan manusia durjana dan jahat ini.

Where Is My Lost Part?

I have always perceived that I am no good as opposed to others. I whined, full with anger and even refused from joining the crowd simply because of inferiority complex that shrouded me. But then, I wonder, am I going to be like this for the rest of my life? Obviously I need to find the one that would differentiate me than others but where and how do I find it?

The Hidden Me

I have always have passion in doing sales and marketing. It is fun, flexible and most of all, u name your income. However, not all sales and marketing are the same as they differ from one another. Some may ask why I choose sales and marketing as my career path instead of practicing what I had learned during my varsity day; Human Resource Management. I am not saying Human Resource Management is not good nor lucrative in terms of incomes but I have my own reason why I choose this field as my career path. 

Assalam And Hello....

It has been a while since I last updated my blog. I have been extremely busy with works that I don't have time to update my blog. Anyway I am back in my world of blogging; where I speak out what lies in my mind to share with all of you out there. While I am typing this, I am actually preparing my reports as well as updating my to-do lists for tomorrow as tomorrow is the first day of the week hence I need to prepare myself for tomorrow. Albeit of me being busy, there are times where I stumbled onto my own emotions where things did not exactly meet my expectation that drove me to the dark side of my life. I felt like it was the end of my world but moment I woke up the next day, I am thankful to Him that He still gives me chance for me to move on although the turbulence is getting greater and greater by days. 

Last but not least, I hope that I will make it through to my desired goals some day. Till we meet again in this world of blogging, happy reading and happy blogging.

-Fadhil Zhafri-

0004 hrs

Shah Alam.

Pasrah......Curhat Fadhil Zhafri.....

Dua tiga hari ini aku merasakan bagaikan kehilangan sesuatu yang sangat berharga dalam diriku ini; semangat juang tinggi yang ada dalam diriku ini.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Will I Be Remembered?

This few days I feel very uncomfortable with some happenings around me. I feel as if I am alone and no one appreciates what I am doing. While engaging myself to boast up my confidence level, I came across this lyrics and song, taken from teh OST Cheers, a well know sitcom back in the 80's. Let's enjoy...

Attention!

Sungai Lui By Aizat

I have not been a big Akademi Fantasia fans but somehow I am attracted to this song sang by one of the Akademi Fantasians finalist but unfortunately he was dismissed from the show due to some people who perceive that he was not good at all;

I Am Still Breathing and Moving on The Turbulence of Life on Earth

Last week was the first week of me at CIMB Bank Bukit Tinggi Klang. Although it is the same company but the circle of people inside it is totally different. I met different people with different characters which I had to start all over again just like how I did when I was at Shah Alam Auto Finance Center.

The Shirelles - Soldier Boy

The Chiffons - The Locomotion

The Chiffons Nobody Knows Whats Goin' On

Middle Of The Road - Soley Soley

Mercedes SLS AMG

If You Don't Like It, Return It Back to HIM......

I wish to share this story via my wife's page in Facebook which somehow this story ended with tears rolling down on my face. As mentioned earlier, if you dont like it, return it back to HIM.

Dugaan Demi Dugaan

Aku tidak pasti apakah ini semuanya dugaan belaka atau kebetulan. Aku sememangnya masih trauma dengan dua kejadian yang menimpa diriku dan isteriku baru-baru ini.

Welcome to this world!

I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate my former housemate and my close friend, Muhamad Hafiz Mohd Seth and his spouse, Hetty Ellyna for their first new born baby at 1830 hrs just now. To Apit Junior, welcome to the world!

With love,
 Uncle Fadhil and Aunty Shida.

[HQ] Jim Croce - Time in a Bottle [HD]

SMOKIE - Mexican Girl (1978)

Cat Stevens - The First Cut Is The Deepest

Linda Ronstadt - First Cut is the Deepest

Michael Jackson - Earth Song

Roberta Flack - The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face [totp2]

First Time Ever I Saw Your Face

Poem To The Most Beautiful Lady in The World

Lady,

For so many years I have been searching

The truth lies in your heart, 

The love and affection that men craving for

But lady, it is difficult to understand you

Ku Juga Mencintai Diri Mu

Sukarnya untuk ku melupakan, 

Sinar matamu yang menawan, 

Terbayang-bayang tiap masa,

Senyumanmu menggoda,

The power Of Diesel Powered Mercedes-Benz

Goodbye February, Hello March

Whether we realize it or not, it has been three months since we entered the year 2011. The year filled with tonnes of mysterious journeys that one need to unveil all riddles throughout the year.

Muar, Sama Seperti Dahulu

Walaupun masa telah berlalu dan zaman semakin canggih dengan adanya jalur lebar berkelajuan tinggi namun, kampung halaman orang tua ku masih lagi utuh berdiri dan terus membangun. Aku mengambil kesempatan hari Sabtu bersama-sama isteri, dan kedua ibu bapaku balik ke Bandar Maharani, Muar semata-mata untuk mengembalikan nostalgia manis di situ. Ya, aku walaupun dilahirkan di Perak namun, semangat orang Muar sudah sememangnya sebati dengan jiwaku kerana aku dibesarkan dengan semangat orang Muar, tempat asal usul ibu dan bapaku.

The Monolog..........

While waiting for my eyes to call off the day, I am writing again tonight. I don't know why but I am filled with high level of enthusiasm to write a monolog, a monolog of a man hanging tight against the turbulence of life that not only him but everyone in this whole wide world. The monolog of all challenges he had to face but some other did not.

Harapan.....

Di hatiku lakarkan sebuah impian

Yang ku namakan harapan.....

Time In A Bottle

Mengingati Sesuatu

    

Resdung yang menyerang ku semalam kini semakin pulih selepas aku menelan dua butir aspirin dan hari ini aku berasa amat segar dan bertenaga, Alhamdulillah. Hari ini aku ingin berkongsi dengan kalian semua tentang kenangan lama ku sewaktu di bangku sekolah. Suatu zaman yang penuh dengan liku-liku kehidupan bergelar remaja dan cabaran yang terpaksa aku lalui. Walaupun 11 tahun telah berlalu, ya, 11 tahun aku meninggalkan bangku sekolah dan kini aku sedang sibuk meniti liku-liku kehidupan orang yang berkerjaya, cabarannya lebih hebat dari bangku sekolah kerana prestasi aku di nilai berdasarkan indeks prestasi kerja (KPI).

Ragam Pemandu-pemandu Malaysia

One of my favorite magical 70's song

Sharifah Aini - Cintaku Cintamu (1975) The Magical 70's Music

SALOMA - KELOHAN 1975

A New Day Has Come......

For The Rest of My Life----> Especially Dedicated to my heart and soul

13 March.........Permulaan Sebuah Perjalanan Atau Suratan Takdir?

Hingga Penghujung Hidupku.....

Semua Tentang Kita....

Malam ini aku ingin berkongsi bersama rakan-rakan semua tentang sebuah lagu yang aku sehingga kini abadikan di dalam diriku sebagai tanda persahabatan aku bersama rakan-rakan sewaktu aku menuntut di UiTM Perlis. Jujur ku katakan bahawa setiap saat aku bersama mereka, itu lah kenangan terindah yang aku pernah alami sehingga kini. Benar kata orang, sahabat datang dan pergi tetapi sahabat sejati yang kekal bersama kita tidak kira kala susah atau senang. Kala kita bersedih mereka turut bersedih dan kala kita gembira, mereka turut bergembira. 

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Rindu Terubat Jua...

Aku bagaikan terbang di awang-awangan malam ini kerana rindu ku terhadap penghuni rumah berhantu (rujuk Rumah Itu Berhantu)

Jiwa Ku Kosong........

Faithful Car....

Terima Kasih.....

(Khas buat Allahyarhamah Puan Hajjah Kapsah Jaafar dan Allahyarhamah Puan Kamariah Yusof)

Kemaman.... Once Upon A Time....

Believe it or not, my family and I used to stay at a place located far far away from Kuala Lumpur in the East Coast of Malaysia. Terengganu Darul Iman is the name

AMG= Aku Makin Gemuk!!!

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera wahai pembaca budiman. Kita bertemu lagi dalam lembaran aku yang tidak

Aku Pasrah.....

Aku Sepuluh Tahun Lepas vs Remaja Hari Ini....

Aku terpanggil untuk mencoretkan hala tuju golongan muda remaja hari ini. Bukan untuk mencari kesalahan orang lain tetapi sekadar meluahkan perasaan risau ku terhadap anak muda bangsaku yang boleh ku katakan kini kian layu. Malahan aku menjadi takut kerana aku juga mempunyai seorang adik yang sedang menginjak usia remaja. Aku risau, takut dengan apa yang di hidangkan di hadapan ku ini. Remaja tendang guru, bergaduh, bahkan ada juga yang sanggup menyerahkan mahkota diri untuk orang yang tidak diketahui asal usul mereka dan motif mereka bersahabat.

Rumah itu banyak jasanya.....

Aku Dan Kenangan

Sambil merehatkan diri memikirkan hala tujuku di masa hadapan, tiba-tiba idea datang lagi, memang idea untuk menulis keluar kala orang lain sibuk menyiapkan diri untuk merehatkan badan sebelum meneruskan pekerjaan mereka keesokan harinya. Malam ini, aku ingin berkongsi sebuah puisi yang telah dijadikan lagu oleh sebuah kumpulan retro 70-an di Malaysia, yang menggelar diri mereka, The Brain Connection. Lagu mereka sungguh menyentuh perasaan ku terutama sekali kala teringat akan zaman muda remaja ku yang penuh dengan liku-liku kehidupan. Sama-sama kita hayati puisi ini....